Remembering growing up

This week I encountered the younger sibling of a person I knew in high school.... and lets just say that this person and I didn't get along. She dated my best guy friend... one of the first friends I made when I moved here and I'm pretty sure I didn't take it well.... plus with her he developed a bad reputation. oh man was I pissed in high school. Actually I wasn't the only one there were a few of us... but still we all talked (amongst ourselves... I don't think I spread my feelings around the masses that much) pretty badly about her... so sure that she was the one who took him down the path they were on.

Well this sibling confirmed the rumor I had heard... They had gotten married a couple of years after high school and were living back east, the guy had joined the air force. And I couldn't help but think... well I hope she grew up and I hope thier happy.... and not much else. It only occured to me later that well I had grown up.

Its only hit me this year that my attitude has changed about things. The stuff that was so important to me just last year isn't so much any more and I think more about what others go through than what happens to me. Now I'm not flawless and I am so sure I have so much farther to grow but its crazy how we change so much in just a short amount of time or even over years. And its funny how small things change the way our path lay out... How if our "if only's" had played out. One of them struck me today.... If only I had given him the right piece of paper... I would maybe know whats going on in his life today.

I sometimes regret the fact that I don't have any of the same friends from high school... no one knows who I was back then... just me. No one to remember with... no one to make fun of how badly we lost the big game this year... no one to groan about what we wore or how we acted. Most of my friends now range from 2007 and onward. I use to blame it on growning up but now I see I had so much more growing to do.

Satuday I'm leaving for Mexico for a trip with the family (and this one includes cousins!). I'll be gone for a week... in other news a friend I made from the last cruise finally emailed me! He's from Mexico so maybe he can tell me what to do in Cabo for 2 days... Gosh I'm sorry but Cabo is so boring but apparently I haven't been to the good places. So we'll see. Hopefully more talking of soccer is in my future. Right now I ought to be packing but I'm not... I got an email to write, some blogs to check, clothes to wash... and contimplating the going to a grand opening of rei. Tomorrow will be another day to worship God and live my life for Him. But I really outta pack then too...