Today I was struck by the thought of caring. I was subbing for some plain rude classes. Everything I asked them to do they made it a chore. I asked them to be kind... no way. I came to a point where I dcided just not to care. If they got done cool if they didn't no skin off my nose I still got paid. But then it struck me that being a Christian is all about caring and caring for those who don't care, who hurt you, and those who just want you to drop off the face of the Earth. That is what we are asked to do. To love until we cannot do it any more than turn to Christ and have Him love through us. We love even when its hard... to be truly a Christian is to allow yourself to be hurt by others.
I cannot say that I was successful in caring the rest of the afternnon but my expierence gave me something to chew on for the rest of the day. To be honest I have been struggling with growing deeper with my relationship with Christ. Thre is no one to push me in my walk or challenge my thought process. I dread growing stagnant and I am longing for something to make me think. But I am unsure of where to start or what to study or how to go about it becuase I know I probably should have someone to hold me accountable to it.
But right now I have a challenge... and that is not to let myself stop caring.To allow myself to be hurt and handle it with grace. Trials with pure joy creates steadfastness which when it comes to be fully effect you are truly complete and lack nothing. James 12-4
