I've had a crazy summer thus far. It's been full of ups and downs and I cannot begin to explain how I've changed and how broken I've been. Nothing has really gone like I've hoped or wanted but it's gone like it should have for if we don't have seasons of hardships then how are we changed for the good? How do we learn how to trust in God? How are we secured of our faith in Him?
This past week I was supposed to walk the Camino de Santiago, an pilgrimage route that I have wanted to hike for over 15 years, but an old injury came to bite me in the bum and I couldn't continue. I rejoined my group on the last day of their hikes and even on that day we didn't hike on the way, we hiked along the highway (yes it was scary). How could that happen to me? I've wanted to hike the Camino for years and a very old injury prevents me from it? How could God be so cruel? After all the stuff that's happened this year? I can tell you it's because He loves me. He knows what's best for me, I have to go through all this crap in order to see the better, to trust that in the long run, God has a better plan. Along our hike yesterday we saw the rainbow I posted above. Someone once told me that a rainbow is a sign that God fulfills his promises to us. His love never fails, He has a hope and a future for us. I don't know what God had planned for me, and I don't know if I truly want to know that all yet. I may have a feeling but nothing is for certain. All I can do is surrender to his will and see where it takes me. Through the pain there is hope.
