Let me let you in on a little secret.... I have always wanted a surprise birthday party. To me that is the ultimate sign of someone caring for me. Not letting me in or asking opinions on what I want but just going all for it and planning me a birthday party with people I love there.
I turned 28 yesterday. It wasn't as hard as I thought it was but I did miss my mom. Instead of blueberry muffins I got cinnamon rolls and no one sang me las mananitas and no cake. I did get free Starbucks though. It's bittersweet to know my last birthday here went somewhat uncelebrated. Yeah people reached out via Facebook and texts but no one truly came along side of me to celebrate it. I wish I was capable of asking someone to do that with me but deep down I just want someone to tell me that they really want to.
My life is filled with drama and it never stops. I wish it would. I wish someone would reach out to me... To speak my love language of actions not words. At the same time I also want to be content with what I have and thankful for it. It's just sometimes hard to see it through all the drama. I want to be optimistic about it but I don't want to get my hopes dashed. There's just no end to it. I can never decide what I want.
