so I know I reall ought to wirte about my time in Hawaii or the end of my time in Spain because lets face it, those maybe much more exciting than what going on in my life. But to be honest Spain is still hard to think about. I didn't have a a bad expierence but every time I really think about it I just want to cry. I just miss it there and the community there. Its hard to be all alone in a town with no friends peeps. And Hawaii was fun and beautiful but I did mostly touristy things, went to Pearl Harbor, and went to the North Shore. You all know I love history and basicly it was a big history tour for me... if you wanna see my pictures from the trip theres some on facebook and more on flickr here http://tinyurl.com/3nepkun and basicly you've just seen my whole trip to Hawaii.
But this last week I've been subbing in my old school district. Its been interesting I've been called every day. I've had some interesting incidents and for the most part its been a good expierence. I honestly don't feel old enough to be doing this at times but I guess I actually am. For the most part I haven't been at schools I attended but today... I was at my old middle school subbing for a PE teacher. I honestly took the job because to me it was so ironic... I never enjoyed PE and well middle school was just not the best thing ever so I thought it would be funny to sub there. And it was I'm still sorta giggling about it. I just didn't really think about the possible encounters that might happen. The one that really hit me was a really unexpected one... not with an old teacher but one with the younger brother of an old best friend from well 4th grade onward.
I can't recall my meeting Robert in 4th grade but he was my closest guy friend until we reached high school and he started dating a girl who well my mom still refers to her as the crazy one... unfortunately my opinion of her still isn't much higher. The fact my mom, who can't even remember my friends names from MH can remember his is something to say. This is one of the people I still think about from time to time... Has God ever made your heart just ache for someone for no particular reason? This is one of the people that my heart has just randomly ached for once or twice... not for love peeps but just cus...I've always taken it as God wanting me to pray for him or something... I can't truly say that I miss him... because even I know that time changes people and I am a different person from my graduation 7 years ago. Who knows what our "friendship" would have been like now... Eis, a lecturer from school, say men and women can't be friends because one will always want more than the other. And I'll admit that when I was in high school I wanted to date him but that was after he started going with this girl... so it just might have been me missing his company. I can't say now. Our lives have taken differnt paths... Apparently he's married and in the army now.... Gosh I can't even think about me being married for 5 years at this time (he's been married that long). I wouldn't have been at UCSC or MH or Rio Vida... I wound't have gone to Washington or taken road trips to SF, or gone on crazy adventures with my friends... I wouldn't have had this year of craziness. And I don't think I'd want to not have the expierences I've had since I graduated high school. I'm okay with being single, its given me an oppertunity to do things I never could have with someone else and I don't think my relationship with God would have been as good and as strong as it is now. God is truly the mastermind of everything, including my life, and He knows what is best for us. I am supposed to be the person I am right now because God wants me to be this person. So all I could do when I saw this kid who I've known since well I think he's the youngest therefore since birth was to tell him that I said hello to his two older brothers (the second oldest was a friend of mine too) and leave it at that...
So today is Good Friday... the day that Jesus died for our sins because he loved us so much. And in 3 day He will have rose for us as well. To all a Happy Easter and may God keep you and constantly remind you of what He has done, does, and will do for you.